Despite my lack of posting, I am still alive. Still chugging along at this crazy thing called life. You might think that I’ve been outside enjoying summer but in Hamburg, summer is it being 36C one day and 16C and raining the next so, no, I’m definitely not outside in either one of those temperatures. Instead I’m about to start my third week of yet another intensive German course, this time C1 (advanced). I would like to say that I’m really enjoying it, but I’m not. Remember this post is about challenging stuff. I’m finding the class really hard going, which if I was looking on the bright side, I would say that this is a good thing as it means I’m learning lots of new stuff. However, I feel like a total idiot the vast majority of the time. Also, unlike my previous German classes, I’m really not gelling with any of my fellow German learners this time around. The class is decidedly un-fun.
The reason I’m taking this class is because of my next big challenge. I have a new job which I will be starting at the beginning of August (in 2 weeks, yikes!). This new job will be completely in German. Cue me freaking out, big time. It’s also a job that I’ve never done before, so not only will I be learning all new things, I’ll be doing it in a foreign language. I’m finding it somewhat mind-blowing that I will be doing a job in a language that I didn’t even speak 4 years ago and that fact is just adding to my panic. I know logically that they would not have hired me if my German was that bad and that working in German all day is going to really propel me to fluency, but the first couple of months are going to be really tough. Also, I will be working in a massive agency that has 4 floors’ worth of staff, which is going to be a huge change from working in an office with just one other person. In fact, my team alone has 12 people on it. This will not be an office where I can blast my music when I’m having a bad day. I will need to invest in some decent headphones, cause let’s face it, there will be bad days, probably quite a few of them.
I know these challenges will lead to good things, which is why I’m refusing to categorise them as bad, however, I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed right now. I’m not always that great with change, even change that I know will be good for me in the long run. For those of you who have made the transition from working in English to working in German, please tell me that it wasn’t that bad or at the very least it resulted in some great stories. I need some positive vibes over here.