Well my attempt to go off my medication was a complete and utter failure. I lasted two days. Two days full of pain and barely any sleep. Dear gods, it was hell. I decided it wasn’t worth trying to get off these meds when I found myself sobbing at 6am this morning due to the pain.
So back on the medication and hopefully since I was only off it for 2 days going back on the meds won’t cause me to walk into walls for a couple of days. If you don’t hear from me tomorrow, can someone check that I haven’t walked into a corner and am unable to find my way out?
I would be disappointed, but I just want relief from this pain and some sleep. Obviously my meds are doing exactly what they should be and need to be doing. My brain is still broken and maybe it might stay that way forever. However, I will take my meds and put up with the lower tolerance to alcohol and dull reflexes that they cause to be pain free. I never want a repeat performance of the last 2 days.